I feel horrible, I am turning into a person I never wanted to be. I am becoming cold. But do you blame me? Do you really? Would you not turn cold if you were not experiencing what I have been enduring?<\/p>\n
Do you realize one thing that is shattering my glass into more intricate pieces. I picked the pieces up before. I have picked them up once and it was not long ago. And I very well assume and think I have enough strength to continue doing so. You get hurt and then you heal. Even if some of the pieces seep into my veins and hurt – I will heal. Even if your words no longer make me feel special. Even after I bathe in the hours silence, even after I realize that you were never anything – I will find some bright to this dark shade of grey. I will begin to feel again.<\/p>\n
For now, I thank you for the horrible feeling. Thank you for making me feel no feeling.<\/p>\n
I dont feel great, or wonderful. I am however lost and searching for something I do not know. And now that the weather is turning cold…. It is keeping cooling my insides even more. I was always sweet and pleasant and now I am just broken and distant. I write to erase a past. I write to mark a present. I write because I feel cold. I write because I was always unwritten.<\/p>\n
Thank you for no words. Thank you for excessive hurt. Thank you for the hours of nothing more. Thank you so much. Without you, I would not have experienced and become a piece of broken glass.<\/p>\n
I can hurt you too, you know.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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