Archive for June, 2006

You Gave Up When I Gave In—Ironic (part one)

Jun
30
2006
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We Spoke The Oath But Never Abided so here goes Until The Day I Die, No We Die.

They drove in silence, neither one of them wanting to interrupt each others thoughts or distrub this pleasurable stillness of sound. They provoked each other with these moments that measured their true understanding of each others feelings. Their eyes seemed to project their pleasure and masked the dissatisfaction to merciless ends.

She no longer wanted this adventure to go on anymore; she’s through with this entire chaotic mind swinging feelings that just won’t stop churning. It’s time the ticking stops, the handle freezes and they continue moving their souls on separate paths.

It’s been over for quite awhile, but the void of silence has been the equation to this disillusion. Deception was all she could utter beneath her soft breathe…It was truly the harsh ending to a heart breaking story. The love dies within their bodies as they explore the beginnings of nothing more.

He found the drive taking longer than usual. It was the casual daily routine they took every Friday at dawn. They were more acquainted with each other to understand the silence meant one thing….false endearment and paining love. He longed to find some time alone with her, yet she’s been avoiding their encounter, making up fake excuses to delay. He knew her feelings have yielded nothing more from her part than hurt and throbbing aches.

The windshield was so clear and transparent that their reflections were somewhat a dream. They looked like happiness miserably seeking an end. They looked like beautiful people sharing the happiness of the long stressful days. Yet it was mirror-like but failed in validating the truth of skin and flesh…..

To Be Continued…Or Not 😉

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yes, moi is guilty of having free time on her hands, i have nothing to do but make up stories but i have soo much to do…hehehee, i have to write that and research this and redo that and think about Senior Year and crap and apply and such…but i think next week shall be my last holiday then i must get down to business and decide how i want to shape the future because when summer ends, reality will strike and what comes after school will hopefully college unless me dies 😉 anywhooo so i must must strategize and plan….

i bored you yup, so anyways i am looking forward to PORTUGAL vs. ENGLAND i cant wait inshallah it goes as i plan to expect, i want their battle to last over over time, when they can bring in the hott shot players to do some penalty kicks, :)….i know reality is portugal has 85% chance of defeat but come what may i will take it with a big smile hell i am proud they made it thus far……….portugal may god be with you..and make this girl proud :*

I Wrote This For You Missed One

Jun
29
2006
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i told you i was going to blog about it so here goes…..

my darling sister who stumbled across my blog “fufuwa”, the same girl that’s just turned nineteen, i miss you! first off, how did you remember the url…like seriously i showed it once to you yet you never recalled it all along..am guessing my dear sister jackie, linked you it…..but today you shocked me and made me smile and grin so wide……and laugh devilishly….thanks for the heads up on the typos and clarifying things….. muwah…i love you even more :)…..but i am so happy that i shocked you……:P, glad to be of service….I MISS OUR SHOPPING EXPEDITIONS AND OUR sisterly moments….i miss you!

now everything you conjectured darling from my writing and poetry…hmm…. nope i’m not in love, but do you have a candidate i’ll go for it, but i am infatuated with this soccer player and apparently every soul is..you’d never guess who in our household loves him tooo…heheheh…..anywhooo back to what we discussed….and what you think, no sweets i’m not depressed, sugar you of all the siblings and family knows me the best, hell you bare my darkest secrets, my dreams, fears, my laughs and crys and crushes and such….you were the one who got me out of those tears with sparks of hope and such that i will be someone special someday…i will make something of myself that will make mama and papa proud and everyone else…

you know me better than i know myself….but i am glad you think me deep, cuz i can be and hmmm….i’ve grown to be…and darling you have no idea how this discussion made me feel….i feel like i became some different person in your eyes…i’m no longer that deeply challenged girl in a subject called english..i think my ownself motivated me to feel confident whenever i write anything…..and all i can say is “in her face baby….that 10th grade teacher who thought i sucked…but i proved it to her aye this year when my 11th grade teacher awarded me………”

i’ve grown to be someone different, someone wise, someone more confident and well if someone hits me with a stone i’ll fire back…and damn i’ve become far tooo honest, member the laughs we shared about how i was extremely honest to this incident where someone we love deeply asked what i thought of the attire and i said the truth….yellow birds fly..hahhahaee

now my mentor and inspiration, i am deeply moved that you think i’ve matured and that i arised from situations even when they challenged my guts out….i am deeply honored you found my writings underlined something else, i guess you read between the lines but chicka dont worry….this girl will last longer in any battlefield…and now that i know your an audience….i am going to try to come out with something better each time, i want to win your respect and such…because your far better in this field than i’d ever dream to be…

and i want to read those stories and poetry that you assume or say you threw away…darling its not smart to tell me that you had them when your miles away and your room is next to mine…heeheh…and by the by i shall do what you said and i will eventually do that favor you asked of me…..

babes, sugar, doll, all the sweet words in the dictionary…..i love you and i hope you read this post…..it’s dedicated to you muwah….and recall our dinner’s where we cook something sweet, well you always kick me out of the kitchen since i never really help, just blab…. and we talk about life, and such well i can’t wait till i see you again ….. :”)

and i so love how you began the msn conversation with WHAT WRONG WITH YOU….i thought something different but hell you gave me the laugh of my life….thanks…

this is soo unsophisticated my writng right this moment but …this is my real self to you…my normal self who was caught up in the moment as i always doo…excuse my consant ………….(dot dot dot..)

Your Battlefield

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i am sorry to those bloggers who read this and thought damn i just wasted my time reading something useless or etc, this was just a sisterly moment 🙂

Someone Not There That Never Was…

Jun
28
2006
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Cluttered!

Your the portrait I longed to paint. Your the priceless artifact not on sale. Your the future of my life. Your the handles on the clock that sway from side to side. Your my everything but you dont know me, yet here I am writing you this letter hoping you understand something…

I love the feel of the broken glass scarring my wrist, I think of you as always that is. I love the feeling you ignite in me, when I miss you still. You are something undefined. Your the mission I seek to conquer and declare mine. Your the mountain I long to climb, your the ocean that shall drown me breathlessly. You are something, you are my all, yet you never knew me.

This may seem awkard, you may be vain, yet my infatuation of you is set to blame. I wished for you, every night. I wanted you to hold me tight…wipe my tears that they made me cry. I want you to understand that once upon a time you were nothing and now your my all. Save me, reject me, just tell me that i’m dreaming and make me sense reality….

Why am I so in love with you? Is it because we both are exposed to the sad truth? Your abused and i’ve been used? Can’t you create a land of make-believe like I do? Picture yourself some different soul, don’t be unhappy when your not at fault. Dont be something you know they are.

Here I am, dying for you, wanting you to see me as beautiful! Hoping you shake yourself loose and look around you. I am infatuated, melting with tears and love for you. Are you someone who will be my something, but sadly with the news that lay, I am talking to the one who shall never be as I wanted true.

Your years older, and i’m feeling small. In the world of misconceptions and illusions that never end. In time I hope I rest those thoughts of wanting you to be my all. I wanted for now to make you feel, that a soul out there is in your reach…but you cut your strings so soon, its by far a crime I will hold aganist.

So you’ve been bruised, you’ve been in pain. We are all bound and caged yet I longed to set you free, and make you fly gracefully. Your the rose that never wilts…your the soul who is my one and only….I am your shadow and I am your light….I wished to guide you to that place so bright..yet you took matters in your hands aye, decided to end this growing pain…

Here I am crumbling this letter that shall never touch your hands, hear I am murmuring words that you’ll never read, because you couldn’t take it, you couldn’t run. You are now resting peacefully yet are you content with all thats been. If I had been you, i’d never give in, i’d struggle and tumble and bleed and be………

I loved you then and I love you still, the growing pain that keeps me going shall never rest.I think I have found happiness, even though your gone and i’m alone. I told you once in my dreams, to close your eyes and think of nothing. Forget the scars that scortch your back, forget the happenings of pain and such. Just feel the beat of my heart and think of nothing less at all. Dont imprison your emotions of love and caress the pain, you never heard me, you never did.

Unfortunately the battle you fought you lost in shame, killing yourself whats to say? I rather dont blame you, but I also do. I hope you found spite as I have found in you. You know that canvas thats sitting in the corner of my room? The same one i dreamed to paint your portrait on…. Its starring at me, waiting to be something symbolizing you. Yet I dare not stroke a brush on its skin, I find it a reminder of you and your sin. With the looks of it and the shape its in, you seem to have erased your figment in my imagination. You’ve left no mark, the blank sheet thats resting on this table have never been touched. To set the record straight, I never lifted that pen and marked the sheet with ink. I didnt write you anything, I didnt meet you still….come to think of it, I never will….

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THIS WHOLE PIECE IS A CONTRADICTION…at least i think so as i was writing it, kept trying to hook it all together and make it seem true, yet i hope what i wanted to be known is seen across to you…:)

-your battlefield….aka dandoona off to bed yup i’ve stayed up for too long….i shall rest and read your comments later on ….i just cant stop this freaking rhyming its getting on my nerves…toodles for now, you all shall be missed :)..argh i should duck tape my mouth and let the rhyming end…:)

I Think I Saw Death No Its Actually You

Jun
26
2006
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normal pathetic post ahead:

first of all, i have been somewhat dead to the world for two consectutive days….i have been sick and feeling like hell. you name it, i had it….i felt like something was outstretching my stomache, and my god the pain…it just simply was my companion for the entire day yesterday and somewhat now….i hate it when i get sick…i just couldnt even move to go to the doctor…so i was basically curled up in different positions every five minutes cuz i couldnt stand the pain in one location……. i am sooo tired and weary from yesterday that the entire day was spent in my room or the bathroom….either trying to fall asleep, trying to take some medicine….yucky pills that just wont stay in my system for less than a minute…it will go out the same location it went in, my mouth….aka…barfed it out….am sorry for this inconvience of grossing you out…bas i am in no mood to write a story or some poetry i just wanted to explain my absence well its probably only i who noticed..but anywhooo….

the best part of being sick was the people who really care about you are right beside you trying to make that miserable pain subside and go away….i love my mother who stood by me and tried to make me feel better, and at last after 5 hours of feeling like hell i finally went to sleep, and for my sisters who checked up on me and asked me how i felt…and for informing me that my portugal won against holland bas someone injuried my honey and they shall have to repent…i hope my ronaldo feels better and i cant wait till they face off with england…that will be a game none should miss……anywhoo my baby little sister whom played doctor to me…it was sweet of her and i love her so much….and also to my father who is out of the country but for calling up and asking how i felt…..and for everyone else from my family and etc……when your feeling the pain and aches, there is always someone who’ll make you see the brightness of this day….

anywhooo i guess my post is boring you out and such…so i’ll try to end it smoothy and with some sophistication….i am loving each and everyone of you this moment in time…and i think i shall go lay down for now cuz all this recollection of what happened is taking a toll on me….anywhooo….i missed you bloggers and i missed my healthy self…inshallah tomorrow i’ll be feeling better than before….:)

i would like to wish my sister who is thousands of miles away in college..a happy wonderful birthday….babes your finally 19….damn thats old…hehhe kidding bas still no matter how old or young you are…your the inspiration in my life and without you and your constant motivation you give me i wouldn’t make it out in the real world…..i love you till death do us part….and i hope your summer course is going well with you….and doll your birthday gift will be coming to you when inshallah they come to see you in august…..i lurve you….so much….and its simple you are getting a nice gift whether you care to accpet it or not….

two years ago…this day started out like any other bas ended up with a heartache…..bas inshallah this day dosent replay itself…….hamdallah for everything and 🙂

sorry for not posting up an image….damn blogger dosent want to load anything i want…:(

We’re Just The End From The Beginning of Our Start

Jun
24
2006
Posted at: 5:58 pm
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you stood near me
you heard my ache
you shut me up
told me to rest away
i stood to breathe
you pushed me down
i saw my bruised self
bleeding in your eyes
you held me still
gripped my wrist
decided to hush me up
kiss my flesh
biting it hard
you watched me bleed
more and more
i lost this battle
but we are still laying in this field
weren’t you my anecdote
when everything went wrong?
weren’t you my lullaby
masking my soul?
yet this moment your nothing to me
your no longer my undying agony
your not even the sea
your just this battered soul
kneeling before me
your waiting for someone
to teach you pain
your waiting for something
to kill your shame
your waiting for a miracle
your waiting for me
to float dead in this sea
…..keep waiting…..
-your battlefield-

Guilty Yet Breathing Innocence

Jun
22
2006
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the lights blind me again
standing beside you feeling just skin
blood and flesh
crush me still
beauty of this night
destroyed in your embrace
velvet silk slides to your grace
tears of crimson escape
just and secure you once made me feel
regret and fear reveals you near
steps fail to balance me still
the light confessing your deadly sin
voices and erupts the night to bliss
savioured in your memory
sets you free
forever less forever lost
in the darkness of this street
you walk away
leave me still
hiding and gasping
for breathe and air
tears lay still
as i stay bare
-your battlefield-

I Miss You, I Dont Love You

Jun
20
2006
Posted at: 2:05 pm
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Dear Self,

I want you to recall whats set to end…

Its been year’s, hasn’t it? Its been week’s since we last met! Its been forever since you felt the adrealine rush. Its been hours since that crush turned into love. Its been minutes since we went our separate ways. Its been seconds before i threw your dear letter to the bottom of our well.

How many people will stop to console me, let it end? How many more touches of sympathy will I need before I just erupt? How many more tears shall fall on my cheeks before my tears be spent, and I be tearless? How many words so useless will pledge their love to me, till I understand the dear truth of end?

People will simply die tired of me, consolation will be my last resort and lasting plea. The soft hands that caress my touch shall end now, and die without a thought. Pledges of love, sacred it may, will be the beginning of something less, because the difference was just simple, but complicated you had to be!. We are in dire need for sometime to speak, but where have you jetted off to again?

The trublence of the plane your feeling as you read my letter, is yet another sign of us on breaking ends. The jabs of pain mimicking their hands caress were the last touches from the wound the collision set forth. Is it me, or are you in the moments of your last wish, last reminise, last breathe before dying, last taste of beauty on this earth? Whats the last regret from you of me? What the last word you beg to say, oh please voice it to me?

I am standing still wishing I was like this well, humble and dark, silent and yet awakening. The bucket can rise up and down, but weightless and heavy when its wishes to be. I wish to be it. I wish to dry it up. I wish to direct your thoughts to this place the last. I wish for minutes to besiege your dying escape. I wish you die in pain, because…

Because I missed you dearly. I miss you still. It dosent really mean that I love you . It dosent make things right when they are entirely wrong. It dosent end our figment of love. It dosent bury your corpse with loving hands, it just brings a heart burn to my emotions that wish to stop. It only means that your ending was a birth of me.

Lastly, and without a hint of tears, are you settled and breathing death? Are you careless, wounded, and whispering whose name? Do you still blame me for falling out of love? Do you still believe that we could really hide our shame? Do you still believe our love was sweet and without pain?

Answers to my questions will remain unknown, for you have left me here to mourn, the loss of you, the loss of me, the loss of someone bittersweet.

Yours Truly,

Never Shall Be
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I wanted to post up a doodle, bas my scanner wont care to work for now, so i’ll let it be for another day. Instead i thought of posting up a short writing piece, hope you like it…and tell me do you get what i’m trying to say…anywhoo enjoy this day…:) and i think today my portugal is playing and inshallah they will make me happy and proud of them….but still whatever they bring forth i accept.:P

I Dont Like You I Just Know You.

Jun
19
2006
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i dont sleep, i dream.

i dont eat, i enjoy.

i dont laugh, i glitter.

i dont know you, just your scars.

i dont lie, i am just damn honest.

i dont assess, i take notice to indifference.

i dont realize, i energize.

i dont appreciate, i love mysteriously.

i dont cry, i bleed tears.

i dont get anger, i just release the aggravation.

i dont find things simple, i just like complications.

i dont find you charming, i find you appealing.

i dont age, i just wrinkle from my smiles.

i dont misunderstand, i just define.

i dont read, i believe.

i dont draw, i imagine.

i dont like you, i just know you.

i dont know if you seen another battlefield, but today i’m your’s.(?)

from me to you…or not so..;)

I Lost A Friend Somewhere Along In The Bitterness

Jun
17
2006
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hmmm….its been far too long since i posted a doodle….and well i decided…i should today…for some reason or for nothing at all….hope you like it….feedback is desirable by this battlefield….

your opinions, dislikes and such to this latest creation…it took me how many bloody hours to finish….well i began it at 6 pm and finished it finally at1:30 am…my hands are aching but i think it was worth it….i ran out of ink during the process and used some water to make it last tooo lazy to go get another pen from the pack….

i am proud of myself that it didnt take twenty sheets of paper to settle on continuing the doodle, just one which is a miracle….:) in my case

anywhooo…..am thinking of doing a doodle pre day and come the end of summer i’ll be rumaging through a packs of paper…reminicsing of the hours spent creating them..

I Find It Hard To Breathe……

Jun
15
2006
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how old are you?do you act that age…and what categorizes us acting our age….????!!!

now….am i really seventeen? its always being everyones reoccuring question… and i continue to shurg and be guilty….yes, confirmed, no use denying it, am guiltyof being seventeen

i am SEVENTEEN…

dont find the age any more enticing than 18 or 19 or any age for the matter….i believe that age is but a number easily forgoten yet can make some degree of difference..

was wonderin what age do you think me be?what makes you think so….??!!

just a curious battlefield anxious for your desirable feedback….

and well the month i turn eighteen will be the month my baby bloggy is a year old “feburary”…..times go by so fast….hell june is almost over…for me at least…:P

anywhooo….whats happened to you at seventeen?!!!anything memoriable….

on another note….i dont know why i’m saying this but i love it when i get the hiccups, or when i wake up in the morning and my voice is disconnected and has this hmmm….deep, soft, alluring nature to it….but then im back to my stupid voice in a mere 30 minutes…anyways…

now me is off to play barbies with my baby four year old sister and another one :)..yes lame…guess who’ll enjoy playing the most….am going to design them some clothes….make them fashionable ;)….first must find some cloth to start my stiching…anywhooo enjoy the day 🙂 tooodles…for now!

Dreams of Silence….More For Me

Jun
13
2006
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so have you lost yourself, wished you were someone else?

have you any excuses to suit your case of being ashamed?

are you a battle without glory? and be it that, what’s your strategy?

did you cry when you shouldnt and were tearless when you should have wept..?

i dont know, how many times do you say these 3 words in a day?

hmmmm…now i just dont know what spurred on those questions….hmmm….well then awaiting your answers…i shall be off to doodle for some time….;)

but am wishing i could watch the soccer games but yes our showtime doesnt want me to watch it…we have to get the card thingy so you can watch it….that was the most stupid thing ever done…permiting people from watching yet its the smartest ever…their flithy rich now from everybody rushing out to purchase so they can watch the matches….ohh germany 2006 i route for portugal…portugal to the end…if they end then holland :)….anywhoo

toodles… for now!

Endless Whispers Die Out Now

Jun
12
2006
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its over….
my tears have shed
my pain is exposed
within the beauty of this heartache
you’ve failed to rescue me
yet again…
your an ocean
the tidal waves drown my soul
misearbly and innocently
i am no longer yours
its over…
we’re done
whats left is to erase our mark on
the tainted wooden chest
where we embedded our last
fairytale reminisce
your gone
yet i’m still living
my desire is never lacking

cut me lose

disfigure me
piece by piece
the distant disappears
tears curse my core
and finally..
melt me down
into your unforgiving body..
it’s over

your my illusion

a ficitional being
i dare to ask of you one last time
touch my dying skin
and let the endless whispers die down
bury my tiring soul
forever now no longing more
its over
we’re over
your gone..
reworked poem….after some editing and eliminating some words and adding
something to make it better than was before….what do you say???
poem i wrote thinking that it might spice things out….do you like it or are my words just blah…anywhooo it’s over the nightmare is over……FINALS ARE FINETO…adios…they were so yesterday today i finished my last two and my best classes that i love history and english!… and come this wednesday our report cards are out and well my scores will be known…inshallah all goes well…downside we pick them up at 7:30 am why couldnt they make it in the afternoon..neeways..baby hello summer die down school…..in other news i went to jarir today and splurged on art supplies and such….this is my artful summer, college searching time and thinking facts straight, and reading the novels i havent read from jackie’s collection ;)…each day should be productive and eventful….anywhoooo toodles for now…am guessing ill probably be posting more often now…..:) ah..beware i’ll be a talking machine….:)

This Is All You’ll Get

Jun
10
2006
Posted at: 6:21 pm
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something is missing
am missing something

am craving someone

someone’s craving
but life goes on doesnt it
goes on life does
and tears fall down wasn’t
bloody tears fall
and you experience bad days aye
bad days curse your experience
today was a begining of one
ending of today
hope for sure it ends as a last one
last one to end hope
finished a chemistry final
chemistry finished me
4 more to go… finals presay

tomorrow i have algebra and religion 🙂

religion and alegbra
last math test for awhile
awhile at last
last 2 exams english and history

hmmmm….save me from my nightmare

nightmares save me
come to think of it i had one today when i

just wanted to close my eyes for a short nap

never fall prey when you close your eyes

it was scary

Cradle of Flith Opinion Guaranteed

Jun
9
2006
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ATTENTION: not my usual type of post….this is my down straight opinion on a matter you should take into consideration!!!..Now: you may read on or simply go back!!

i’m going to ask you a simple question and you answer it with truthful honesty…what’s wrong with the world today?…..no seriously what is wrong….it’s falling apart and no longer is it appealing from what i’ve seen yesterday to be sure….you must wonder and think what am i blabbing about but here goes…

yesterday i was watching tv with my sisters and we were all gathered around and such…flipping the channels going from movie to shows to music channels…yes this was my study break …because i got fed up for a bit anywhoo back to the point…we watched MTV from awhile and let me tell you they compared to the channels in the middle east are PG 13 while the channels here are R rated…parental advisory seriously and anywhooo…so mtv was alright nothing illegal bs something was distrubing apparently robbie williams decided to pose as well a religious figure jesus and what is wrong with this dude seriously…….

so we change the channel to mazzika, melody, etc and we saw the shamefully, disgusting, people who really think that baring your body and singing lyrics like your a … to gain viewers…anywhoo…the ladies and men to be exact both fell from my eyes…is this what they want us to do…bare ourselves and gain fans and glamour….why not do something with your life that isnt degrading…but it dosent have to be that way if you focused more on singing than physical appearance and …. you know what i mean..bs this isnt what captured my attention not for a good reason.

well we come across this video clip for a male singer and guess what…?? his video clip shows him apparently “overdosing on drugs”…wallah whats wrong with “you” people…this is what we want our childrens to grow up watching….do something with this life dont destroy yourself and drug your surrounding with your “high” sense of life….anyways the singer drops his head on the glass containing the powder like drugs and well then he goes all crazy….what if a young toodler or a mere child watches that….what do you think your sparking on them…i am well educated in that area to know the good and bad and understand this bs that happening and to know right from wrong but they are children!!…how can you allow yourself to expose them to such a devasting way of life….yes get overdosed and sing like never before….may god be with you all…i think what the problem is that most of them are getting closer to the figment of living rather than thinking about their end and thanking god for all we have….

anyways…this is why i had quiet a fall out with watching tv…because they just show us things that are just….i know i have the remote control and can change what i dont like bs still dont you want to cleanse our life from people who think that living life requires the prerequisites of taking off …, acting …., and getting all the surgery that they can hold themselves too….

anyways tomorrow is my chemistry final….inshallah i’ll do my best and purgatory this is the last time i will say its a chemistry test, or etc..since you think thats the only class i ever mention having tests in….bs tomorrow is quite sad….my beautiful inspiring sister is heading back to …. and i’m gonna miss her and to top it off my father too is traveling same day and well…..i’m going to miss them dearly bs i still have others here to give me loving company ….. anways tell me how you see our world of television today ???…i hope my opinion didnt change your thoughts about me bs im being honest and have to say we should change this and that and etc…:) and my good how the last weeks i’ve been tooooo honest i guess incidents have told me to act real and disregard superificality….i am finally comfortable with telling everyone what i really think about…without censoring or making it pleasing for their ears….

think about it…tell me your thoughts!!..sorry for such a lonnnnnng post 🙂 i got caught up!

Piece By Piece…Reveal Your Identity

Jun
7
2006
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It’s better off this way. Yes we should part off embark on separate days. Our love is just dying, let’s face it, age brings back the pain. We used to find pleasure but all we seem to find is guilty eyes staring face to face. It’s oddly sad dont you think, it’s finally ending in such a depressing way!

Fine we both admitted our failures, yet you never seemed to show you cared. We breathed those sins together but all you found in me was regret and shame. I guess both of us find the hours ending, our minutes wont turn themselves into days. I wish I could tell you once and forever, our love was not to blame!

You thought I was a villian, trying to plot terms to set against you. You whispered in my ears words of endearment yet I heard the echo of resentment and lasting pain. You misunderstood the action, always seemed to push me far away. We are just growing old, in this devasting gruesome life…yet we chose each other on matters we’ve come to purposely misplace and erase.

I know I was a sinner, I never wanted to repent not even today. I know you heard my words, I realized I hurt you deliebrately but would you really blame the fool carelessly awakened by your touch? Be it that our life is a battlefield; your the fighter and i’m the blade. We are two and two together, but separate us and we will fail!

We still seem to enjoy the company of misery and hate. We will remain unthoughtful lovers to each other though our eyes hide away our care…. Let’s face it, no one understands this and that of us, we are merely lost souls waiting for the right day yet darling it’s far from today. We are just going to remain together, till a grave separates our fate… We are used up souls, spoiled by our vanity forsaken by this blade…lay it on your body, soul and heart and i will release my hungered pain…

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on the occassion of finishing a final exam today i wrote that story above….hope you like it….and what can i say 5 MORE FINAL EXAMS TO GO….this weekend is not a pleasurable one…care to switch places..basically have to hit the books for the upcoming days….so i’ll be lacking in some sleep, stressing within the hours and wishing for distance from the diaster of next week…